Sunday, January 28, 2007

Woe. Too much work and not enough time, evidence or essays to critique. You would think that there would be a relatively large amount of stuff on the Internet or in the library about the conventions of Restoration Comedy. I mean, conventions. Stock things that every Restoration Comedy has. I can list you some conventions of Shakespearean plays - the disguised ruler, the fool, the intelligent female. So why can you not find ANYTHING on Restoration Comedy?! Gah.

My problem at the moment is I just don't see the point of it. Why research something if there's actually nothing you can research? 'The Rover' is not only a mediocre play at best, it's also pitifully written about. If anything is written about it, it's written about the playwright Aphra Behn, who was one of the first successful female playwrights. Nothing seems to be written about it in comparison to other Restoration Comedies. Gah.

In other news, it's Boy's 21st birthday today. We went to The Venue last night (Pirates vs Ninjas night) and had some drinks, went back to his house for 2am pizza and coke, went to town today for a roast dinner at Wetherspoons, and later on I'm going back to his for cake. Mmm.

For some reason, I have nothing much else to report. I appear to be in intellectual and imaginitive stalemate. Damn.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

You know those epiphanies you have at a stupid time in the morning when you're trying to sleep? Here's one I had earlier.

I've never really had a Best Friend. I've had a fair few Good Friends, and a small number of Very Good Friends, but no-one has really qualified as Best Friend. Most of the friends I've had have been there for convenience. I had some Very Good Friends in secondary school, but none of those have left me any cause to remember them, fondly or not. It's just a simple fact. I've enjoyed their company and I've held them very dear to me, but now that I don't see them I feel no real sense of loss, nor do I feel the need to stay in contact with them. There are some friends I do still see (mainly Choir Friends, who automatically have their own status because I see them so rarely) and whom I still feel strongly about, but again I get the feeling that if we parted company for one reason or another I wouldn't really feel too strongly about it. I was hoping that my first year at university would finally give me a Best Friend, and funnily enough it has ... but not where I was looking.

See, what I realised at Stupid O'Clock in the morning was that my Best Friend is Boy. And I know it's cheesy and cliche and saccharine, but it's true. Because, thinking about it, while I adore all of my University Friends, and while I have some Very Good Friends in most of my housemates, I still get the feeling that I wouldn't exactly be devastated if I never saw them again. But when I think of Boy, I can't imagine what my life would be like without him. I can't see my future without imagining him in it. I want to make him happy and I can't stand it when he's upset about something because it upsets me too. It's a new feeling for me, a completely exhilerating and terrifying one. It terrifies me that I feel this strongly because I've never felt like this before. It's scary and it's weird but at the same time it's wonderfully simple. I love him and I just don't know what I'd do without him.

I'm scared of all sorts of things. I'm scared of losing him, I'm scared of making him scared (ironic much), I'm scared of spending too much time with him and I'm scared of spending not enough time with him.

Maybe it's because I've finally found my Best Friend. Maybe it's because I've finally found the most amazingly amazing Boyfrend ever.

Either way, I don't want this to end.

Monday, January 15, 2007

... As soon as I wake up
Every night
Every day
I know that it's you I need
To chase the blues away ...

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

God, I'm tired. And for no apparent reason, either. This sucks! I had a lie-in today until half twelve, had a nap from six til about nine, and I'm still absolutely knackered. I don't get it.

I've also got a play, three chapters and a reading pack to get through before 10 o'clock on friday morning, and I STILL don't know what I'm supposed to be doing for my Stage Practice module, and the lesson is tomorrow. Not impressed.

Boy is currently out with friends at pub. I like that we can still do things with our friends and not need to be with each other 24/7.

GAH. Why am I so TIRED?!

Am going to tidy up some more, then get an early night.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Love goes towards love like schoolboys from their books
But love from love, towards school with heavy looks


The Beatles were right.

All you need is love.

Monday, January 01, 2007

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

- Stop biting my nails. (Check - started that one two weeks ago, actually. Haven't bitten them since!)
- Buy more Old School Doctor Who DVDs. I now have An Unearthly Child, The Daleks, The Edge Of Destruction, Spearhead From Space, Genesis Of The Daleks, City Of Death and the TV Movie. I'm going to aim for an average of two a month - this time next year, I should have 24 more to add to my collection!
- Tidy up more often and stay tidy. My room is always a comlete TIP.

Happy 2007, everyone! :)